note to myself: think faster, act now!

saya memang jarang bisa menolak,
jadi saya lebih memilih untuk tidak merespon.

Bahagia itu Sederhana

Today was another random moment with a random person.
And that random good and pleased feeling when you give a helping hand and trust someone you don't know very easily because your heart says that it is not dangerous and that you have to.

Today was the most well-spent day of taking all of the opportunities that I could and wanted to take.
You know, you have to try as much as you can because there is nothing to lose! You wouldn't regret if you failed the tests because you know at least you have put your effort to take the opportunity.

Today was a contact keeping time.
Meeting friends that you have not met for quite a long time, saying greetings, shaking hands, asking news, chatting a bit with them is always a happiness.

Today was an involvement in a quality long chat with 'Ibu-ibu Warung Berkah" which I just got acquainted.
Sharing stories and opinions and laughs with someone you just knew is always a pleasure.

For yesterday was reconciliation moment of a conflict with someone after a long time.
That relieved and blissful feeling that finally you done what you have been planning for so long.
Finally I have the courage and now it is a friendly relationship with no more tenseness between us.

I'm full of contentment right now.
Alhamdulillah for all You have gave to me..

Happiness is simple.
Bahagia itu sederhana.
:)

I hope my smile
Can distract you
I hope my fists
Can fight for two
So it never has to show
And you'll never know

I hope my love
Can blind you
I hope my arms
Can bind you
So you'll never have to see
What we've grown to be

One may think
We're alright
But we need pills
To sleep at night
We need lies
To make it through the day
We're not ok

One may think
We're doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We're losing ground
With every passing day
We're not ok

But that's one thing
I would never
One thing I would never
That's one thing
I would never say to you

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I, I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin',
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, 'cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah, yeah

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

there's just too much going on in my mind lately..
about everything I wanna do in the near future.
too many..
and it's confusing me already.
how can I made it?where should I start?
I just haven't got a clue..

You say good morning, and good evening
The day is done, and you've come to find
The words are fleeting, I hear your quiet breathing
Is something wrong?

You come on two knees, with more than two needs
Finding that it's all too easy
To be helped and found
You slept and he said

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home


Daylight's coming, the sun is blazing
New beginnings seep into you
But in the end it's distant shadows
That finally overwhelm your senses
And this time around
Is it love that you crown?
And this time around
You'll be more than who you are

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home

Could you find yourself a way home?
Could you find yourself a way home?
Could you find yourself a way home?
Could you find yourself a way home?

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home

Thank God for blessing me with such incredible friends.
Thank you very much for your attention, your prayers, your support through all this time.
I wish you all the very best in life.
I'm sorry if I'm still treating you wrong, but I know you'll change me to be better.
I love you all. :')

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

"Fearing pain, fighting pain, avoiding pain or ignoring pain, only increasing it. Flow with it."

-Wrad

 

Wisdom is a healed pain. :)

It Will Rain - Bruno Mars

If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.

There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin’ out the door.

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin’ with that troublesome guy

But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand
Oooh well little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make you mine

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

Don’t just say, goodbye
Don’t just say, goodbye
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make it right

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

Blissful

To be able to sit together and have a dinner with your friends, especially with them who have been at odds to one another for years, is a bliss. To see them chatting and laughing to one another again is a blessing. :')

euphoria

"Kamu senang?"
Kyaaaaaa~
"Kamu senang?"
Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!
"Aku juga.."
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~!!!

(ucapan Hyde dan reaksi penonton konser, Jakarta, 2 Mei 2012)
watch the video from youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LE5MoYFpw14

Euphoria: L'Arc~en~Ciel 20th L'Anniversary World Tour 2012, Jakarta

For all the people who were with me last night, MAN MAN MAN? TAP TAP TAP! :D

I have never in my life experiencing such an awesomely splendid amazing-energizing concert like the one I had last night. Everything I always imagined from 8 years ago really did came true. It was just like in the concert DVDs I and my sister used to watch. Everything was settled perfectly! The stage, sound, lighting, multimedia, and the effects. My dream to experience the moment watching L'Arc~en~Ciel playing Anata live with weak lighting, disco ball, and with the audience holding glow sticks and sing together, has now achieved. That moment was even more sentimental with the rain pouring upon us slowly. I couldn't stop thanking God of how blessed I was. 

With total of 19 songs and some MCs, the band successfully made everyone singing, jumping, dancing, screaming, laughing and even crying. The crowd was craaazy! Almost everyone is fluent with their lyrics. Everyone got so emotionally energized by the joy and excitement!

A little quick survey from twitter I did last night, many of the Cielers said that Hyde, Tetsuya, Ken, and Yukihiro didn't seem to get older! I really agree with this! Their physical features, their energy, and their attractiveness are not changing! (Even we didn't see wrinkles!) Me and my sister are curious if they suck blood and really are vampires haha. At first I thought it was only us who think like that. Surprisingly, there are so many out there who thought exactly the same. Well I'd be glad if they are vampires, because they would be eternal! LOL.

They truly are communicative, attractive, cute, sweet, fun, funny, you name it! They really shown warmness and not cocky after all. I was really happy to see the excitement on Hyde's face to sing with us; to see Tetsu with his childish jumping, his always-open mouth, his happy face when he's going to give away his banana and lollipop; to see Ken's smoking on the stage and his cute accent when telling story in Bahasa Indonesia; and to see Yuki  proudly and powerfully hitting the drums. Hearing them speaking Bahasa Indonesia is like "Aaaaaa! Kyaaa kyaaa desu!" very happy, indeed.

It was like a revenge of the long wait. An enormous satisfaction of fulfillment in one night. Enormous gratitude from me to L'Arc~en~Ciel and the promoter. One of the most amazingly magical night in my life! :')

Let me give you a few peek of the concert last night~

Hyde + Tetsu = Kyaaaa!

cannot-be-shut mouth of Tetsu

Ken speaking Bahasa Indonesia! Man man man man man? :D

Oh my........ Hyde!

the powerful Yukihiro!

Hitomi no jyuunin :)

He's so beautiful O.O

 

See all the photos here:  

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150787191859259.428495.831754258&type=3

p.s.: me and my sister were too excited to take photos so that our cameras were running out of memory in the middle of the concert, unfortunately. we also record two videos, but they're too big to be uploaded, we need to resize them first.